“I’m doing Mustache March, but I’d rather be doing “Beard Forever”- me
In the first installment of transition, I said that I’m probably leaving the Air Force. As far as I know, this is still true. I applied to separate on the 14th of January, and still have not heard back, definitively, yay or nay. It’s a part of the AF’s Force Management program, which is to contribute to a lower DOD budget. I agree with the measures in theory, but they way it’s playing out is might inconvenient.
1) There’s no information- they’re keeping us in the dark. I don’t know what benefits I’ll get. People that get kicked out voluntarily get 6 months of medical coverage for themselves and their family. I’m leaving voluntarily, and the charts that show who is getting what doesn’t include my program. Official memos are few and far between, and have contradicted previous versions. I get more timely information from Reddit than anywhere else. It’s a gross oversight, which leads me to my next point…
2) There seems to be no accountability! No one is getting blamed or fired. The Air Force Personnel Center (AFPC) is basically the AF’s HR department. Located in San Antonio, far away from the disembodied giant floating heads at the Pentagon, and seemingly beholden to no man. AFPC announced they were taking a “strategic pause” in processing applications, and that was ok. If I said “hey guys, I’m not going to be doing my job, but I still expect to get paid, and I don’t know when I’ll get back on the ball. It is what it is.” I would be berated by everyone who could be rounded up and possibly detained by police. Totally unacceptable, just like how…
3) It causes unnecessary anxiety. When the program first rolled out, it was a lot of “everyone you know is getting kicked out” to “You are probably not going to be able to leave the service”. I’m ready to go. I have a few interested companies, an awesome resume, a great LinkedIn profile, and the exact education and experience the industry is looking for. I’m ready to be a valued team member for an organization, even if it isn’t the Air Force.
I know I’m not in control. I know that God alone knows how the dominoes are going to fall. I am trying to leave it to Him, and for the most part, I am, but I’m just a little wound up today. Lately, I’ve been staving off anxiety by making sure I’m as prepared and competitive as possible for whatever outcome- that my next performance review will be good, that I’m networking, that I’m managing my online presence. I used some SEO tactics to make sure my linkedin is the first result when a few keywords are searched. I’m hustling, and I’ve done good work, but I can’t depend on my work. I need to depend on Christ, and I’m transitioning towards that, too.
I’ve gotten tons of helpful advice and support, for which I am grateful. I can always take more.