Precipice

Tomorrow is the first day of my new career. I’ve had the same job for the last 15 years, and I am a bit anxious about not knowing or understanding cultural norms right away. I know it will probably be fine, and I’m excited about it, but I still worry.

Ok, so what I’m really worried about is behaving appropriately as a civilian. I was in the military for nearly half my life. I don’t want to seem uptight, or overly courteous to a point that makes people uncomfortable. I know I won’t be too causal, and I won’t have bat “veteran” habits like calling people “shitbird”, speaking exclusively in Talladega Nights quotes, or punching their sandwich.

As I said in my previous post, I’ve been without a routine. My drive is approximately 15 minutes, so I’ll leave at least half an hour early. I’m not good at mornings, so I’ll wake up 2 hours early. That means I need to go to bed at 10. I’ve already packed my lunch and set out my clothes. I still have to set the chemex up. I need to do as much prep the night before because I am a surly ogre in the morning. I haven’t had to do this in a while, so it may be painful.

I’m trying to approach this with a sense of adventure, but still, it’s just a job. My life will still be screwed up in a lot of ways, and I will remain very much a fallible person. I know this, and I’m putting it aside so I can have my moment.

 

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