I went to sleep right after 8. I haven’t needed to go to bed that early in quite some time, but I don’t regret it. I had free time- I could have read or watched a movie, but I tapped out.
I don’t prioritize rest. I can’t; I must be in a constant state of hyper-vigillance, which is draining. I don’t know what else to do. Since transitioning to the civilian work force, some of the negative stressors of military service, such as working the weekend (unpaid) at the drop of a had, the ever-present threat of deploying to some violent craphole, having to answer your phone 24/7, have gone away.
Also, my anxiety about dying in a mass shooting is down 80%.
This has been good for me. I can sleep without troubling dreams, or the constant fear I was forgetting something.
Rest is important.